The moons revolve around planets, the planets revolve around the sun, the sun revolves around the massive black hole in the centre of our galaxy and our galaxy revolves around other galaxies. Everything in the universe is connected , all depend on each other for their survival and continuosly look for reasons or insipirations from their surroundings to thrive. Maybe that’s how the life suppose to be, the continuous struggle to motivate and inspire yourself to be happy!
If you are breathing, you got to find some goal , otherwise there is no reason of all this. Sometimes it is tough to do that but it is the only way forward. You got to remember one thing in life that it is imperfect. All the negative elements- dejection , frustation, defeats, losses, apathy, sufferings do not last forever. Infact these experiences just increase the taste of happiness when you finally get it. In this way you can say that these negative experience have their own importance in life.
The best way to overcome negative experience in life is by connecting with the people around. Maybe they are the miracle you are looking for just like the sun for our planet. They can share your grief, can give you inspiration, can guide you towards right direction. You believe it or not just the presence of others in bad times makes you feel comfortable. Its like a magical charm that has given purpose to our universe, that has harmonized our system.
My mother was suffering from Kidney failure for over 5 years. Her agony and pain was very deep and regular dialysis was breaking her day by day. She was fighting each and every day to bring smiles on our faces because she knew that our happiness was to see her alive. I remember those nights when she was not able to sleep because of her pain.
I remember those days when she felt better. Right in the morning, she cooked delicious breakfast for me and saw me to the gate and always waited on the door when I came back from college. Those days have gone, now I don’t see my mother waiting on the door but she is watching me from above. She was admitted in the hospital for a minor operation of fistula for her water dialysis .
It was over a month and I visited her twice as my exams were going on. My father hid all the complexities happening with her, from us. And when she was about to give up on life support system , my father finally told us. It came as a shock, the unbearable grief. She was on life support system for over 4 days and when I finally touched her feet in the ICU , two hours later she died. It was like a final farewell she wanted from me to leave this painful world. My father told me she was asking for me in her last days.
I know I cannot bring her back to set things right for her, for us but one thing I definitely want to do, to say final good bye to her with her ears listening and her eyes watching me. Maybe in the dreams I can say that but actually she is always alive in my dreams, when I am sleeping. I will always remember her sacrifice. Your life is so precious and you do not realize it until someone sacrifices for you.
I wrote an elegy in the memory of my mother few days ago-Memories